Friday, May 26, 2017

What goes on inside your head?

After a recent search on Pinterest, I saw a pretty neat idea about a blog post. 

Writing down every thought you've had during your day today. So while I go through my day, I will jot down what I've got going on in my mind!

  • Omg it's already time to go to work.
  • Okay; I need coffee, how do I work this thing.
  • I hope everyone likes my coffee, idk what I'm doing with this coffee machine thing.
  • My hair is a mess today. 
  • And you kidding me?
  • Why is this place such a mess?
  • Omg, it is so cluttered and messy over here!
  • If I have to highlight another line I think I may screen! 
  • A 3rd serving of cake won't hurt wil it?
  • You're really awkward.
  • Did that really just come out of your mouth?
  • I think my underwear is falling off, what the hell.
  • Is it time for lunch yet? Ugh nope it's only 1030
  • Ugh I have to go to the bank after work.
  • What am I going to get my mom for her birthday?
  • Am I almost done with this stuff yet?
  • I really hope I don't have I work the sidewalk sale tomorrow in the 90 degree heat. 
  • God this hair today!
  • Omg I've only for 10 minutes left of work, yay!
  • Time to go, ugh now I need to go to he banks
  • Do I really have to go to the bank tho? 
  • Man this traffic sucks so much, I just wanna go home
  • What kind of ringtone was that, that was weird.
  • This chick is way to happy and it freaks me out.
  • Yay money'!
  • Ugh should I go or should I wait?
  • What the hell, this traffic is horrible.
  • I miss my man, I wish I could talk to him ok the phone.
  • Please say you can talk.
  • YAY! 
  • Awh man I'm home, now I gotta do more work.
  • Yes! Sitting down finally.
  • Okay I need to go grocery shopping now
  • I hope the kids behave
  • Do I need cookies or do I need fruit?
  • Ugh I want to buy junk food so bad
  • I hope I didn't over spend 
  • Yay more traffic
  • I just wanna sleep and take a bath. 
  • Well I guess it's time to get dinner.
  • Eww this is way to spicy.
  • Time to start moving, do I really have to tho.
  •  Finally kids are asleep, I need to relax
  • Bath or shower?
  • I can't wait to be in bed. 
  • Alright, I'm out, no more time to blog! Goodnight world!  



Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Getting to know you! 

1. If you didn't have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time? 

Trying to sleep πŸ˜‚

2. What is your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned?

Tshirts and running shorts!

3. What hobby would you pick up if time & money weren't an issue?

Woodworking! Lol 

4. What does your perfect room look like?

Simple and elegant, with a canopy bed and a desk looking out the window! 

5. How often do you play sports?

Not often anymore 

6. What fictional place would you like to visit?

Hmm, that's a good question!πŸ€”

7. What job would you be terrible at?

Being an assasin!πŸ˜‚

8. When was the last time you climbed a tree?

Probabaly like 2 years! 

9. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance of winning a medal for?

Eating

10. What is the most annoying habit that you or other people have?

Biting my nails!

11. What job do you think you'd be really good at?

Anything in the medical field 

12. What skill would you like to master?

Learning to present what I'm capable of! 

13. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on?

Honestly, id love to just go hike the Grand Canyon...

14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house to live on for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like?

A farm style house, reclaimed wood, with a big porch ! 

15. What's your favorite drink?

Pepsi

16. What state or country do you never want to go back to?

Florida

17. What songs do you have completely memorized?

Song? I remember albums. You can't name just one. 

18. What game or movie universe would you like to live in?

Ummmmm, is FarmVille an acceptable answer πŸ˜‚

19. What do you consider to be your best find?

My happiness 

20. Are you usually early or late?

Early to work and doctors appointments late to literally everything else! 

21. What pets did you have when you were growing up?

Dogs, bunnies and  hamsters! 

22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually need help with?

No one really ever comes to me for help, but when they do.... it's usually just for someone to talk to 

23. What takes up too much of your time?

Stupid people

24. What do you wish you knew more about?

Life

25. What would be your first question after waking up from being frozen for 100 years?

Where's the nearest zaxbys? 

26. What are some small things that make your day better?

My children, certain people and coffee

27. Who's your go-to band or artist when you don't know who or what to listen to?

Fleet wood mac or john mayor 

28. What's the best way to start the day?

With a positive attitude 

29. What TV shows do you like?

I don't actually watch much tv, but naked and afraid 

30. What TV channel doesn't exist but really should?

πŸ€” the sleep channel!

31. Who has impressed you most with what they've accomplished?

Honestly, myself!

32. What age do you wish you could stay at permanently?

Eh, none 

33. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch?

Marley and Me!

34. What's your ideal way to spend a weekend?

With someone I love, outdoors!


35. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don't think you could live without?

My cellphone 

36. What is your claim to fame?

Ew, nothing! 

37. What is something you enjoy doing the old-fashioned way?

Dating! 

38. What's your favorite book or movie genre?

πŸ€” anything suspenseful with good cliffhangers! 

39. How often do you people-watch?

Oh way to often! 

40. What have you only recently formed an opinion about?

I've always had opinions on everything lol

41. What's the best day of the year?

Everyday 

42. What subject interests you that not many people have heard of?

Pathophysiology

43. How do you relax after a long day of work?

Taking a bath! 

44. What's the best book series or TV series you've ever read or watched?

Grays anatomy πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

45. Where is the farthest you've ever been from home?

1200 

miles to far

46. What's the most heartwarming thing you've ever seen?

My children's smiles

47. What is the most annoying question people ask you?

Are you married? 

48. What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with no preparation?

Motherhood πŸ™ŒπŸ½πŸ˜‚

49. If you were the dictator on a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do?

Make a no pants law! 

50. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?

Smile

51. Would you rather go hand gliding or whitewater rafting?

White water rafting 

52. What's your dream car?

1967 baby blue fastback mustang 

53. What's worth spending more on to get the best?

Food

54. What is something a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don't get?

The walking dead!

55. What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years?

Building my life back up!

56. Where is the most interesting place you've been?

Canada 

57. What's something you've been meaning to try but haven't gotten around to it?

Sleeping 

58. What is the best thing that happened to you last week?

Spending the night with my man😘❤️

59. What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind, only to experience it for the first time again?

philharmonic orchestra

60. If all jobs had the same pay rate and hours, what job would you want to have?

As a job? Or a pay rate? Lol 

61. What amazing thing have you done that no one was around to see?

Held the hand of a dying man, so he wasn't alone. 

62. How different was your life 1 year ago?

My life, was extremely different 

63. What quirks do you have?

Ummm what? 

64. What would you rate 10/10?

10?

65. What fad or trend do you think should come back?

Jean skirtsπŸ˜‚

66. What is the most interesting piece of art you've seen?

MyselfπŸ’πŸ½

67. What kind of art do you enjoy most?

Everything 

68. What do you hope never changes?

Myself

69. What city would you most like to live in?

I'm not much of a city person

70. What movie title best describes your life?

Ha ha .... series of unfortunate events? 

71. Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now?

Because everyone's gotta start somehweee 

72. What's the best way a person can spend their time?

Happy 

73. If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make?

What wouldn't I make 

74. Where is the most relaxing place you've ever been?

on a lake, with a fishing pole and some music 

75. What's the luckiest thing that has ever happened to you?

Meeting certain people in my life 

76. Where would you rather be from?

No where 

77. What are some things you've had to unlearn?

Trust. 

78. What do you look forward to in the next 6 months?

Life 

79. What website do you visit most often?

Pinterest 

80. What one thing do you really want but can't afford?

New clothes! 

81. Where do you usually go when you have free time?

My bed

82. Where would you spend all your time if you could?

With my kids, a certain someone and the lake 

83. What's special about the place you grew up?

The memories 

84. What age do you want to live to?

Tricky question no idea 

85. What are you most likely to become famous for?

My infectious smile!πŸ’πŸ½

86. What are you absolutely determined to do?

Become a nurse 

87. What is the most impressive thing you know how to do?

Smile? Lol 

88. What do you wish you knew more about?

Life

89. What question would you most like to know the answer to?

What? 

90. What question can you ask to find out the most about a person?

If you could sit and have lunch with anyone in the world dead or alive who would it be and why? 

91. When was the last time you changed your opinion or belief about something major?

Everyday 

92. What's the best compliment you've ever received?

That I have the most beautiful eyes ever 

93. As the only human left on earth, what would you do?

Probabaly cry lol 

94. Who inspires you to be better?

My children 

95. What do you want your  epitaph to be?

Be still, Close your eyes, breathe

Listen for my foot fall in your heart 

I am not gone but merely walk within you. 


96. What haven't you grown out of?

Needing my momma when I'm sick

97. In what situation or place would you feel most out of place in?

Alone 

98. What's the dumbest thing you've done that actually turned out pretty well?

Hahhhahahhaa nothing well maybe one thing, but I'll keep that to myself 

99. If someone wrote a book on an event in your life, what would the book be about?

Hell? Lol

100. What's something you will never do again?

Give more than one chance to people 

101. How do you hope you'll change as a person in the future?

Become a more positive and confident person

102. What keeps you up at night?

My mind 

103. What's the most surprising self-realization you've had?

Eh.... keeping it to myself 

104. What is the most illegal thing you've ever done?

Literally nothingπŸ˜‚

105. How do you get in the way of your own success?

I don't believe in myself 

106. What are you afraid people see when they look at you?

How broken I am inside 

107. What is your biggest regret?

Staying in a bad relationship and Making it work for the kids

108. What do you look down on people for?

Disrespect 

109. What bridges do you not regret burning?

My relationship with my ex

110. What lie do you tell most often?

That I'm okay

111. What would be your spirit animal?

Lol, maybe a dog

112. What is the best & worst thing about getting older?

Wisdom

113. What are you most likely very wrong about?

Probably everything 

114. If you had a personal flag, what would be on it?

A dog, and some food

115. What's happened that changed your view on the world?

Way to much 

116. What is the biggest lesson you've learned?

That not everyone is who they say they are 

117. What is the most immature thing you do?

Whine when I don't get my way

118. What are you famous for among your friends & family?

Screwing up 

119. If your childhood had a smell, what would it be?

A dirty hockey bag and an Ice rink 

120. What one responsibility do you wish you didn't have?

Bills

121. What are 3 things you want to accomplish before you die?

Giving my children an amazing life

Becoming a nurse 

Being happy, everyday

122. What do you want to tell your 10-year-old self?

Don't try and grow up to fast

123. What's the best thing you got from your parents?

Their love 

124. What's the best thing about you?

My motivation 

125. What blows your mind?

Stupid people 

126. Have you saved someone's life?

With help of others, yes

127. What are you really good at but embarrassed to be good at?

Cleaning lol

128. What would a mirror opposite of you look like?

A hot mess

129. What are 3 interesting facts about you?

Im scared of the dark

I am horribly afraid of frogs and ladybugs 

I  can drink coffee all day and never not be tired 

130. Which of your scars has the best story behind it? 

None of them have a good story behind them. 

131. What's the title of the current chapter in your life?

What now?

132. What were some of the biggest turning points in your life?

Pretty much all of them 

133. What's the hardest lesson you've learned?

Don't take people for granted. You never know when they could be gone. You never know how much they mean to you until they're gone.

134. What do people think is weird about you?

Me in general 

135. What mistake do you keep making?

Trusting the wrong people 

136. What have you created that you're most proud of?

My children 

137. What do you doubt?

Myself 

138. What are some of your morals?

  • If it doesn't make you happy, why bother?
  • The world is a critic 
  • Everything happens for a reason 
  • Be accountable and take responsibility 
  • Be generous 
  • Endure what cannot be cured 

139. What do you want to be remembered for?

Being myself 

140. What do you regret not doing in your childhood years?

Nothing 

141. What is your favorite fragrance?

I have to many to say

142. What do you think your last words will be?

I'm hungry

143. Who or what do you take for granted?

The people I love:( 

144. Why would you be annoying as a roommate?

I'm OCD

145. What is something you're insecure about?

Myself 

146. What's the best & worst piece of advice you've received?

Time heals everything 

147. What irrational fears do you have?

Lol closed shower curtains and walking in drains 

148. What makes a good life?

Good company 

149. What's the last adventure you went on?

Not really sure

150. What is the most memorable gift you've received?

Is it okay to say my children? Lol


If she chooses you....

If she chooses you please, I beg of you, hold her hand when she’s nervous and when she isn’t, Never stop responding to her when you’re angry, talk it out because she will lose sleep wondering if things will be the same come morning and if they can be fixed, Over time she will blame herself for the flaws in the relationship, Remind her you’re equally at fault but there will always be things that are out of your control, you’re stronger together.

If she chooses you, please listen to her talk about music  and food. 

If she chooses you, I ask that you show her every ounce of respect you have, She may come with a bite but she is gentle, She teases and taunts, but if you look at her eyes right before she looks away you’ll see she is afraid of losing something important, She takes herself more seriously than she lets anyone know, So be gentle with her.

If she chooses you, wash her hair for her when she bathes and let her squeeze you firmly when she gets into bed next to you, she’ll loosen up when she realizes you aren’t going anywhere.

If she chooses you, please pay attention to the little things, Like the way she pouts and curls in on herself getting silent, You don’t have to talk to her in those moments, just be there with her, She’ll love you for it.

If she chooses you, fight for her when she’s stubborn and always wait for her with an open place next to you in your bed, Don’t let somebody else lay in her spot, She belongs there.

If she chooses you, plan adventures with her, Go hiking even if it’s too hot or too cold, and make sure you bring an extra jacket in case she gets cold, a blanket too, Take her to see the things you see beauty in, including herself in the mirror each morning.

If she chooses you, cook for her on the days she spends resting, She exhilarates herself so much that she often forgets to take a break, Feed her and keep her company, Be there when she wakes.
If she chooses you, understand how damn lucky you are, There is no competition greater than the one of capturing more than her heart, If she gives it all to you, please take care of it, Take care of her.

If she chooses you, please choose her too.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Strength

Strength: The quality or state of being strong.

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.” —Arnold Schwarzenegger


Strength is a word to me, with so much meaning behind it. It is the one word that I use every morning, to help me get out of bed and try to take on the day. It is the one word thats taught me how to pick myself up, put myself back together and survive.


 "but those who hope in the LORDwill renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."





https://youtu.be/5sP9Nx7VozY

Life as a Single Mother

It was never my goal to be a single mother, but it is my destiny to be the greatest mother that I can be.


There are days when I feel like I am not doing a single thing right, and there are days I feel like everything is going as planned and Ive got things under control. I never in a million years imagined being a single mother,  but I wouldn't ever change it for the world.

Being a single mother, is possibly the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, but it is also the most rewarding. Its twice the work, twice the stress, twice the tears but its also twice the hugs,twice the love, and twice the pride. 

I have my days, where all I do is think. My mind is filled with hate towards my children father, because I HATE that these two perfect babies have to grow up without a "normal family." I never ever wanted this for them, but you cant force someone to be a family, if they truly don't want it. Oh well though, thats his loss not mine...

I spend every waking second that I get with my kids, I always find myself staring at them while they play, sleep and even just walk. Because they're my biggest blessings, and accomplishments in my life. I feel like I miss out of a lot of their lives because of work, but I am blessed to have the help that I do from my family while I am at work! I am the sole provider for them, everything they want or need is purchased by me, I get zero help from their father. BUT I like it that way, because I am strong enough to handle it.

I work usually 35+ hours a week, and take online classes, while I care for them, and there are days when I break down and cry because I am so overwhelmed, but I look at them and remind myself that its all for them. I always think about giving up, but then I remember who is watching me.


I am lonely some nights, I sometimes forget to eat. I'll go without, just so my kids can have everything they want and need. Its not easy. All I want is for my kids to be proud of me, I want them  to know that I did EVERYTHING I could for them. I want them to know that despite the struggle, I NEVER gave up on them.

My two kids are my life, my rocks, they're the reason my heart beats, they're the reason for the smile on my face, they're my everything, They are my PURPOSE. 


I will always strive to be the GREATEST mother I can be to these two, for as long as I live. 

Friday, January 13, 2017

Put your music playlist on shuffle🎡

Okay, so I figured I'd give this little thing a try; putting my music playlist o shuffle and writing down the first 15 songs that play..... so let's see 😬



1. I believe in you- Michael Buble 
https://youtu.be/EbrXBLP3cpY

2. Alcohol - Brad Paisley

 https://youtu.be/q3zkkLckeyM

3. Hate me- Blue October
https://youtu.be/dDxgSvJINlU

4. Hope that something better comes along - Matt Nathanson

https://youtu.be/Y9jLWqPJTRY

5. Homegrown Honey- Darius Rucker
 https://youtu.be/KxEwxWWPyhg

6. Better for you- Tank
https://youtu.be/qadsb-Dsyog

7. No diggity- black street
https://youtu.be/3KL9mRus19o

8. Odio- Romeo Santos
https://youtu.be/W8r-eIhp4j0

9. Praise you in this storm- casting crowns
https://youtu.be/vCpP0mFD9F0

10. Walk on the wild side -Lou Reed
https://youtu.be/0KaWSOlASWc

11. Smoke- Maddie and Tae
https://youtu.be/4ZtrOqV83sk


12. All the above - on the rocks
https://youtu.be/VnLPtDYbtKU


13. Mambo No. 5 - Lou Bega
https://youtu.be/EK_LN3XEcn

14. Sucker for pain- lil Wayne

https://youtu.be/-59jGD4WrmE

15.my immortal- Evanescence

https://youtu.be/5anLPw0Efmo

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

25 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me.

  1. Ive always wanted to take a cross country road trip and visit all the national parks I possibly can.
  2. I have the lowest self esteem I think anyone could ever have.         
  3. I hate losing, I am extremely competitive in everything I do.
  4. I fear death, and losing the people I love.
  5. I find myself looking at my kids baby pictures,and balling my eyes out because I am so blessed to have them.
  6. I am a hopeless romantic, which never seems to work out for me,
  7. I care about everyone else happiness but my own.
  8. If I am emotional around you, or open up to you and tell you what I think or whats on my mind, consider yourself special...because I don't open up to ANYONE.
  9. I live life like tomorrow won't come, I live to make people happy.
  10. I believe there is good in ever person, and I always try to find the good despite what everyone says.
  11. My Family, is my life. I would take a bullet for any one of them
  12.  I have an obsession with chicken wings.
  13. I am scared of heights
  14. I am the hardest person to make mad, and if you do....you better run!
  15. If I'm not saying anything, I'm either really really happy/relaxed or I'm realllllyyyyy pissed
  16. I HATE SPIDERS AND SNAKES
  17. I have the WORST anxiety in the world
  18. I will eat a whole bag of pepperonis in one sitting.
  19. I give to many chances.
  20. I hardly ever match my socks.
  21. If I could live in any decade, it would be either be the 20's or 60's
  22. my favorite movie, is oh brother where art though
  23. I have the biggest dreams and goals for myself....and I WILL accomplish them.
  24. I love to sing, and dance.
  25. I never give myself enough credit for anything I do in life....